Tuesday, February 10, 2009
I have been in City Harvest since year 2000. It was Derrick who invited me there. In my life in church, there are really lots of ups and downs. Seeing new people coming to church, but there are friends of mine leaving church. I forgot the name of my 1st CG. But it's really a great fellowship time with them.
I came to CHC when i was 16 year old. It was still at the old Hollywood building. I still remember every Saturday queing outside the building to get good seats for the members.Will meet up at the McDonald or KFC just chit chat. The place was so crowded every session. P & W was great, everytime i got to bring lots of tissues because i always sweat quite alot after the Praise. Hahaha. Worship will be singing out loud with my whole heart. Seeing people jumping up and down is a normal thing during those days. People were excited to praise God! Reaching church early and fellowship or giving biblestudy. After service, usually the new friends will be ask to go to the 3rd floor or 4th floor for new comers meet up at the children church room. Those days, the children church room was so small!! We will have some games and chit chat. After that, we will go for dinner. It would usually be at Singapore Post or KFC. Or even behind the church building the little coffeeshop which sells very nice duck rice. Hahaha. Memories memories. We usually leaves Singapore Post or KFC when it's gonna close soon. Hahaha. We will take a bus home together. I stayed at Hougang at that time. Most of the people stays the same area as me. Some is at Sengkang.
When church was shifting to the new building, we were behind time. The 1st service was starting on a saturday, but the furniture and everything haven't move in yet. Church asked for members to help out in shifting the furnitures. Derrick and i went to help out. We were with Security team. We worked and worked due the next day morning. It was great fun! Really great! We managed to shift everything to church on time. The furnitures you all are sitting now at the lobby, i did my part in shifting it to church! Hahaha.
I have changed quite a few CGLs during my stay in church. It's really quite amazing to me that i change really quite a few CGLs as the people i talked to only have maybe 1 or 2 CGL before in church. Let me see... Hmmm...
1st CGL - Dawn
2nd CGL - Shuying
3rd CGL - Felicia Yeow
4th CGL -Pastor Chee Kiang
5th CGL - Keeliang
6th CGL - Jiaying
7th CGL - Serena.
Wow! Wonderful 7! Perfect 7! Hahahaha. When will i be a leader myself? I don't know. God knows. When time is ready? Hahaha. People will say, nobody is usually ready when they are called upon being a leader. Hmmm.. True.. Usually, it's the circumstances that forces the potential inside of us to be release. When GOd feel you are ready to take up the role, you will take it. Though you will feel you are not ready, but God is with you to guide you. I believe that. But you must have the faith to trust in yourself and God. Hahaha. But do i trust myself now? I think the answer is no. I am afraid to do things as i am afraid to make mistakes. You will say to me, who doesn't make mistakes? It's making the mistake, we learn and move on. It's easier to say than done. Am i being emo now? Hahaha. I don't know. It's just sometimes i want to release it, but i don't know how to express out to people face to face.
Church made me a better person i believe. From a guy who always scold vuglarities and being hot temper and wanting to fight everytime to someone whom people call gentle giant! Hahaha. The moment i received Christ into my life, and i began to spoke in tongues, the urge to scold vuglarities stopped. I totally didn't scold anymore.
I love going to church. It's somewhere i can go to for peace and comfort. I want to have close friends whom i can share my joy and sorrows. =) I don't want people just to be my leaders, i want them to be my friend. I am willing to open up myself, but will people accept me? That's the fear within me now. Will people accept the real me?
I love you God.. I will stay faithful always. =)